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sunnidaze
This is my world......i speak truth from the heart!
 
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other journal
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I have this journal here that i rarely do because i also have another journal elsewhere that i have a hard enough time updating...so for those of you who enjoy my reads PLEASE feel free to visit me here http://neverendingjourney.bravejournal.com/ all are welcome to come by there and leave me comments or just come read.....
 
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NEW YEAR!! 2006
well, christmas has come and gone and New Years is soon approaching.....not sure what this year will look like but i have good feelings about how it will be, and feel really excited about it and the things that will happen this year. I have high hopes for my hubby and his band...WHITFIELD www.whitfieldband.com . In January they will be recording thier new album and soon thereafter i am praying that the doors will SWING wide open and they will be discovered,....Go to the places they only dream of going!! I want to take my career serious aswell,..(not that i haven't been)...But, i know that in this NEW year, i must really get on it, really start taking care of this body better,...physically, emotionally,..mentally,..really pampering myself. I have felt frustrated with my acting agent and am thinking that it may be time to rethink who i am with. Being in this business is a scary thing, and brings out all my insecurites,...Its one of those places one of those jobs that you MUST know WHO YOU ARE and be OK with it,...be more than ok,...I need to BE HAPPY, with ME,..JUST AS I AM!...That can be a REZOLUTION for me....!!!
 
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So what if you wanna be free from your childhood shit! How do you do it? I know its a simple answer as SEEK God! BUT what are those steps that bring you back to the YOU that YOU really are?....I have been on this journey as we all are back to MYSELF.....finding out truth about my weaknesses and truth about my strengths....Finding out where i am plagued with UNFORGIVENESS....which stops me from moving foward. This Life is a complex one yet at the same time it can be so SIMPLE to live a happy healthy life. Looking back on ones childhood can be a crazy journey to walk,.....its one i have dodged for a long time,...and have refused to see that i need to face some stuff and deal with some pretty sick realities that happened back then...BECAUSE they DID happen!!! So here i go......trying to be a better person,...learning who I really am and who God created me to be.....OUTSIDE of all the superficial things that the rest of the world has seen....WHO AM I?
 
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Dreaming to big

Running too fast

Falling too hard

Facing my past

Giving too much

Loving too deep

Taking your pain

Jumping too Steep

Hiding too far

Screaming too small

Holding too tight

Forgetting it all

 
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Anger Feeds Upon Itself
 
 Anger is a virus
That needs not even air
To propagate contagion
Whenever it is shared.

Anger can't be placed in quarantine
To contain its vicious spread
For anger feeds upon itself
And burns a flaming red.

Anger is all consuming
Anger does not desist
From destroying sensibilites
In that haze of its red mist.

David Keig
 
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! I am seriously ANNOYED! I just wrote a whole bunch of stuff and lost it!! ARRRGGGHHHH!! Anyways,...My sweet hubby is out of town for 10 days and i am counting down,...stuck alone with 2 toddlers can be a handful,...especially when they have been giving ATTITUDE since the moment he left!! God give me grace to be able to handle him not being here. I figure if i just keep myself busy and do lots of stuff with the kids....little outings,..that time will go by fast and i won't notice so much. All i have to say is THANK GOD i got my lisence it makes life sooooooooooooooooo much easier to be able to just hop in a take off whenever i want!!!

I must run now................................

 
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ok so i am really bored!
HASH(0x8c19c38)
You are a angel. You are stunning and graceful and
theres nothing you like better than flying
through the clouds.


What creature are you? (great anime pics.)
brought to you by Quizilla
No spoken words - speak truth
 
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silly quizzies!
treasures
The goddess of Treasures/Adventure. You love to go
on adventures because whenever you do, you
always fund treasures and you take great pride
in any treasures you find. You are friendly and
very wise due to all your travels/adventures.
Your friends look to you for your wisdom and
truth on the world. Sometimes people get
envious or jealous of you because they wish
they knew your secrets. You love to be the
center of attention and you can sometimes get
moody when you aren't. Your family finds you
mature for your age because of all the
knowledge you possess. You friends love hearing
the details of any trips you've taken or any
new wisdom you've learned. You sometimes like
to boast the fact that you know so much, but
you never let it get to you. When you're alone,
you amuse yourself with the treasures found on
your many adventures and when you're with
friends or family, you love to discuss the
meaning of the tinkets and their value. Your
power would be the ability to tell the future.


What are you a Goddess of? - (with anime pics)
brought to you by Quizilla
A Beautiful Angel
You are a Light Angel. Yo u love to help people.
You are a person people love to be around.
Popularity is not important to you, friends
are.


What Angel Are You??? ((REALLY BEAUTIFUL ANIME PICS))
brought to you by No spoken words - speak truth
 
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Distant Voice

I run around

constantly in circles

Don't understand

If I'm here or there.

It seems confusing

This Master plan

this map laid out

Where the treasure is to be found.

Your distant voice

Has made a noise

I cannot hear

I do not know

With blindfold on

I walk Your way

I can't convey

What i should say.

My lips are hot

they burn with words

That won't come out

I want to shout

If this is real

Teach me to feel

and know the truth

Of which you hold.

No spoken words - speak truth
 
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first real entry
Tags: hmmmm

Well, now i am going to write something meaningful....hmm what is there that i can write about that is meaningful?....Life as of late has been interesting,..and since i have decided to make this more of a poetry journal i think i will attempt to write one.

This crazed masked person

she haunts my nights

leaving me sleepless

without hope

without rest

The mask she wears is dark

the voice she speaks is slow

The life she leads is fake

and her jealousy

has lead her

to me.

Day after day

Night after night

sleepless she stays

hopless she remains

She awaits my weakest moment

and watches every move

A thief is what she is

In my home she is not welcome.

 
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